Farewell to my ex-husband
We bade you farewell today, I do not know if you could see us from above. It was such a sobering moment seeing you lying so still and knowing yours was a life cut too short. You were taken away so quick and my boys still do not understand why they saw you lying in such a small space.
I prayed and prayed that your end would be better than it was, dying so alone without anyone to hold you and give you assurance. You were a shadow of the man that you once were. Life is funny, we spend most of it in pursuit of riches and satisfying our carnality and fleshly desires but in the end we are just dust that is blown away by the wind. Money, fame and riches without inward substance are nothing. It did not buy you more years; neither did it bring you good friends nor the fulfilment of that happiness you were in pursuit of.
You made my life a living hell, you took the love that I had for you and you trampled upon it and you did all you could to make sure I was not good enough, but still I am sending you to the heavens with forgiveness. You made bad decisions which I do not blame you. I read the bible while I wanted to say a eulogy for you and I came across a verse that says people perish because of ignorance. Had you been wiser you would have pursued happiness in a different manner. It says seek first the kingdom of God and all his righteous and everything else shall be added unto you. It is sad Chris that at a young age you have left our three children.
I will raise them the best way I can with the help of the Lord above, he will be their bridge over troubled waters. He shall and will be the one that calms the winds for them. It is said and I know that Jehovah is a father to the fatherless, he is a husband to the widows and he is our everything.
May your soul find the peace and rest in the heavens that you so searched for as you walked these sands. May the doves bring you peace
From your ex-wife
firestone2012 
a very brave and honest post
God will bless you in your desire to put Him first and do as He commands…forgive anyways. Thanks for sharing your heart. I will pray for you and your children. May the Lord guide you and direct your paths!
The Lord said, “Will I not care for My Own?”–We & our little ones & all of His children everywhere!
From the desert of loneliness & despair came Hagar’s, “Thou God, seest me!” From a heart tested & tried came Job’s, “I know that my Redeemer liveth.” From a broken & contrite heart was David’s, “Wash me & I shall be whiter than snow.” Out of lonely Gethsemane came perfect submission, “Thy Will be done.” Through the gates of deepest sorrow, great souls found their way to a more splendid life. At the foot of the Cross, the Crown was found. The tomb is the gate of the resurrection. Death is the door to life.
Keep at it. It is all gift. The faint stop living. We must accept the gift with confidence in God – in that there is no turning back, no turn to sharp … just the road as it unfolds.
Peace be with you,
One with the Rebel Jesus
Forgiveness is a difficult thing to master. Your example is a beautiful testimony of Love.
Thank you for the very honest post. Wishing you His Love, Light and Peace.
And thanks for visiting lattegirl
Thank you for your extraordinary post, “Farewell to my ex-husband.” You are a woman of strength and the Lord’s hand is on you, your children and your writing. thank you for visiting my blog — my prayers are with you.
A post right away from your heart. You walk strong today after having endured the pain inflicted on you for all these days. Not everyone can do that, forgive and move ahead. I pray for your success.
Thank You for sharing this post…. 🙂
I understand completely. God bless you.
I know that God is blessing you and keeping you. You are a very, very, very brave soul for posting. I know God will keep giving comfort and keeping you safe in his arms. I am very sorry for your loss.
my condolences… but forgiveness is all healing, all powerful. continue…
What a poignant read – I am in a journey of death approaching. Thank you for your honesty
My condolences, sweetie. This is an honest, heartbreaking post. God will bless you for being a good mother to your children. You a brave person. May God continue to comfort you. ❤
This touched my heart. Remember, no one, absolutely no one deserves abuse; it is part of a sinful, fallen world! The Lord says in Psalm 25 – “No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse.” Be embraced by God’s unfailing love. BTW, thanks for visiting my blog today.
Very powerful, and oh so true. (Sad, too.)
Oh…I cannot tell you how much this one touched me! I’m very short of time at the moment, but I will say that I buried a husband too, back in 2001. We were married at age 18, and had 3 kids together. He had left me suddenly, and we were separated at the time. And I am currently separated again…just as suddenly, and feeling as if I was thrown to the curb and not understanding. But even so, I have had to work on the forgiveness thing too, and I think I have truly forgiven on the more recent count, in addition to my first husband. Forgiveness is something not dependent on whether we ever get an apology, or an admission of guilt. It’s actually more of a kindness to ourselves than to anyone else, in that holding on to the bitterness, the feelings of being wronged…they will poison us. And in the end…God is good through it all. Good, kind, loving, merciful and faithful. Thanks for sharing this, and God bless you!
I must have needed to cry. Thank you. You are so strong.
What a poignant and sensitive spirit you possess. God bless you always.
Out of your despair, God is making you into an extraordinary person, who brings pearls of wisdom to others. His love and comfort surrounds you and your children.
I have to say that this moved me, been thinking about it all week, thanks for posting and following..
–Sherbert .E. Punt
thank you i love your posts too
God give you strength !
God is the God of all comfort. May He comfort you and your sons and bring joy where there may have once been sorrow.