Darkness in the light
I saw it yesterday but then I could not understand. It seems wherever I looked it just seemed so dark. The darkness was really frightening. Then there was also the silence that reminded me of something sinister but I could neither place my finger on what it was nor could I find the right words to describe it.
I could not touch it, neither could I feel it but it was there. My heart would thump really hard and sometimes even the dizzy spells were excruciating. I just didn’t want to be a part of it but then I was too cowardly too to just walk away. How could I survive walking through the dark without knowing where I was going, but also how could I stay in one place in the dark when I was so frightened. At these times my imagination ran riots. Classic gruesome tales of old would come rushing through my mind, I could feel the tremors and the cold shivers creeping up my back as my hair stood still.
Then in my fright I saw the firefly as it glowed in the dark. Somehow I found myself laughing in the dark and in the split of a second it hit me. Why I was afraid of the dark, its dark isn’t it because someone told me that darkness was bad? How come then the blind had never seen the light, they lived in it daily yet they took a step everyday using not their sight but their senses. Darkness was not darkness it was all in my mind.
I began then to shift my steps and declutter my mind. Darkness was not so bad because if I had not been in it I would not have realised, the me that makes me.
In darkness I confronted my mind and fears. I dealt with the unknown and found strength to keep moving sometimes on all fours, even if it meant taking a step a day until when the suddenly moment came.
My breathing got easier, my steps quickened. Then light came and I soared like an eagle.
Now I stand at a miniscule height and I know I am a formidable force. People have to contend with me. When this force speaks the earth and the elements stand at attention. See this person that once was afraid of the dark got strength from the higher power. When the small dainty feet hit the ground they know here I come. Subtle yet powerful